The wonderful world of Microbiology!!

Test on Unit 1: Tuesday 12/22 (doable)
Test on Unit 2: Thursday 1/7 (doable)
Test on Unit 3: Thursday 1/14 (doable)
Test on Unit 4: Tuesday 1/19 (AHHHH!!!!)
Test on Unit 5: Thursday 1/21 (DOUBLE AHHHHHHHHH!!!!)
Cumulative Final: Friday 1/22 (AM I FREAKING INSANE???)

Update...

I got a 79.9% on that test, which according to that school is failing, but according to my heart it is doing well. I currently have an 88% in there, so my chances of an A are nil, but my chances of a B are still there. I have the final tomorrow. I was able to get off work early tonight for some extra study time. I was very happy about this until one of my co-workers called me a baby and told me that SHE never stresses about tests. SHE always found her own time to study. SHE graduated with a 99.99% blah blah blah... yadda yadda yadda... make me puke BULLSHIT!!! Well, I have news for her. I am not a baby, I suffer from massive test anxiety and I am thinking about getting tested for either dyslexia or ADD or something. There has to be an explanation to why I am so stupid. I have such a terrible vocabulary and I can't pronounce words correctly for the life of me. Or sometimes I mix up words while speaking. Like I was telling my mom the when she came to visit that when Jamie and I hit that deer, I was suprised that the airbags didn't deport and she corrected me and said deploy. I do stuff like that a lot and people make fun of me for it. Sometimes customers at work even laugh at me and just make me feel like shit. I don't know what's wrong. Maybe I'm just dumb and just trying to blame it on some undiagnosed learning disability. But still, that didn't give her the right to call me a baby and laugh at me in front of our other co-workers. Oh well, she's the one who has to live with herself. Obviously she has self-esteem issues if she has to bring others down. I know. I used to.

You know it was a bad test when....

the teacher comes in and says there was 1 A. That's right, 1 A. And the girl got 100%. I have no idea how she did it. Oh well, all I need is an 80 in the class to pass and I currently have a 90.2, so I'm not too worried. I have the final on Thursday, so we'll see. I have my Nutrition final tomorrow and I am hoping that I remember something for the review last week.

GRRRRR.... I AM SOOOOOOOOOO DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, I have given up on Nano lol! Studying for school became too overwhelming and I don't have time to write. Also, nothing I was writing was any good, so I just trashed it. I need help with dialogue and details. My dialogue always sounds so boring.

Example:

"How was you day, Jeb?" Bruce asked, sitting in a lawn chair next to Jeb.
"It was fine, Bruce," Jeb answers, smoking his pipe. "How was yours?"
"Just fine and dandy. Yup, a fine and dandy day."

What made think I could ever make it as a writer?

I have not updated...

in quite a long time. Greg is out of the hospital and doing fine. No major damage was done, thank God for that. I got a 91% in Anatomy, which is a B according to them but an A according to my heart. I started Nano and so far, I am making my goals. Can't complain :)

I'm worried :(

My stepdad had a heart attack earlier today. I can't even be with him because he lives in North Carolina. I am so worried. He's having an EKG tomorrow, so we will find out more, but until then, I have just been crying on and off. I am praying for him, but I am still so scared. :(

Anniversary!!

Jamie and I have been married for 4 years now! I am soo soo soo in LOVE!!!!

Well...

I no longer have an A in there, due to an awful quiz on glycolysis, the citric acid cycle, and the electron transport chain. Please someone, explain to me why I need to know that stuff to tend to gunshot wounds, stab victims, and people having heart attacks? Do I really need to know that glycolysis is the process that converts glucose into pyruvic acid? Or that the citric acid cycle ends with oxaloacetic acid? Or that the electron transport chain produces 30 ATP molecules plus water? Does anyone really need to know that stuff? Maybe it's relevant, but I don't know.

AWESOME!!!!!!!!!

We had our first exam today and before class let out, the teacher said, "Here are the 6 individuals who aced my exam" and I was one of them!! To her, acing is an A and I got a 93%!! I am so proud of myself!

Also, I got my physical, my titers, my Tdap, and my PPD. None of it hurt a bit! I am defintely a lot tougher than I give myself credit for. :)

So far, I love my class and I love my teacher! We have tests every Monday and quizzes on Wednesday and I just know I got 100% on the quiz today! Woo hoo!!! We go over a chapter a day, so yeah, it's very fast, but I'm understanding it all and I've been studying and going over my notes every afternoon. I just know I am going to do great!!

First Day Tomorrow

It's past midnight and I can't sleep. :( Fear is getting to me. Each semester is 5 weeks. 5 weeks. 5 WEEKS!!!!!! I can't even imagine how much information is going to be crammed into each class. To make matters worse, I'm required to get at least a C in most courses. Normally, this wouldn't be a problem since I was basically a C student in college; however, at the school, a C is an 80%. I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SCARED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shots :(

Orientation wasn't bad at all. I got my A&P book and study guide, plus I ordered my scrubs and met some cool people who are also in the day program. The only thing that sucks is the fact that I have to get a physical and titers (check for immunity). I hate shots :( Also, I haven't had a physical in over 10 years, so I'm afraid of how it's going to be. Ugh! They also told us we had to get flu shots, so I went to Walgreen's yesterday evening and got one. I was so scared! I made Jamie hold my hand, but it was nothing! I didn't feel a thing! The only reason I knew she did it is that I was watching. My arm is a little sore now, but that I can deal with. I'm hoping that the hepatitis B shot and tetanus shot are the same way. I'm just hoping all the titers come out positive, so I don't need any more shots than the ones I'm already expecting.

I have my Nursing school orientation tomorrow and I am so nervous, it feels as if someone is scraping the inside of my stomach with a spoon. I am trying to be calm, but it's not working. I can't help but wonder what the other people are going to be like. What are the teachers going to be like? What are the classes going to be like? Oh Lord, please help me get through this.

Today we celebrated Sedona's birthday. We have no idea when she was born, but we figured she was about 9 or 10 months old when we got her, so we decided to celebrate her birthday Sept. 21. We took her to Stony Point mall and got her some treats from Three Dog Bakery.

Jamie and I rented Zack & Miri Make a Porno. It's was a lot funnier than I expected. Much better than Adventureland, but then again, I only rented that one because the hotness known as Ryan Reynolds is in it. He was great, but the movie itself was blah. I think I could write a better script or screenplay or whatever.

Yesterday was pretty awesome! We walked around Innsbrook and saw a raccoon. Sedona tried to chase it, but I held her leash as tightly as I could. I don't want to risk a rabies bite. She's up-to-date, but if she got bit by a rabid animal, she would still have to be quarantined for 45 days. Not risking ANYTHING!!! We also saved a turtle we saw walking across the road. We saw a few smashed ones, but this one was walking so Jamie put it next to the lake.

Tomorrow, we're going to Virginia Beach. Can't wait!!

So, Jamie and I took a few days off because it's my last chance to use vacation time before I go into what's going to be the hardest 15 months of my life. I think my first class (well, according to the website anyway) is going to be Anatomy & Physiology I w/ Terminology. My credit from J Sarge doesn't transfer because of the terminology part, but I did get an A at J Sarge, so I'm expecting an A in this one as well!

My friend from work bought me the new Jodi Picoult book for getting into Nursing school. I read the first chapter on my break and I think I'm really going to like it! I'm wondering if it ends anything like My Sister's Keeper which tore my heart out. That and Souvenir, which I thought was going to be a lovely romance novel, but instead was about a woman suffering from amyotrophic lateral sclerosis. Yeah, I immediately knew how that one was going to end. Then, I read Firefly Lane thinking it would be a heart warming story about 2 friends who overcome their ups and downs and remain friends all through life. Wow, I really need to stop picking books with sad endings and go back to things like Always the Bridesmaid lol!

Well, speaking of sad stuff, I'm going to go make a couple of Scarpbook pages about Patrick Swayze. May he rest in peace. :(

I got IN!!!

I'm GONNA BE A NURSE!!!! I am so excited, nervous happy, proud, and so many other indescribable emotions!

Orientation: Sept. 23 1:30 PM

Classes Begin: Sept. 28

I CANNOT WAIT!!!!

One of my best friends is moving to London next week. I am so sad about this, but I am very proud of her. I mean, she's going to Grad school out there, so that is a big accomplishment in itself, but I am still very sad about it. First Sarah moves to Kahzakstan (I did not spell that correctly) and now Sydney's leaving to London. I wish her the best of luck, though! I know she will be successful in anything she does.

Speaking of school, I am supposed to find out either tomorrow or Friday. I have no idea how I'm going to get through work tomorrow. This afternoon, I was so shaky, I could barely walk! I ate almost nothing all day because my stomach was in knots. I knew I wouldn't be able to hold anything down. I have so much riding on this one phone call and I have no idea what I'm going to do if it's a "no." I am trying so hard not to think about that happening, but I know my lack of experience, plus all my C's in college, are factors that may limit me from being accepted.

*fingers crossed*

So, I'm still waiting on the call from MCI. I am so nervous! I have no idea what I'm going to do if I don't get in. I won't be able to go back to Full-Time at Barnes & Noble, so I am stressing out so much. I'm surprised I'm sleeping or eating at all.

If I do get in, I'm hoping that I'll be able to handle it all. I struggle so much with school and it scares the hell out of me. I am so worried that I'm building myself up for all of it, just to disappoint myself in the end. Well, Lord knows it won't be the first time. Many aspects of my life are just a bunch of strings of disappointments, all threaded together to build up where I am in my life. One huge disappointment.

I AM SO SCARED!!!!

Sad...

A 20 year old woman died in a horrific car crash in Dinwiddie today. She had an infant daughter with her. Her daughter survived, but is now motherless. My heart is very heavy right now.

A had a blog before...

My friend, Audrey just joined and I can't remember my old username/email account/password, so I created a new account. I haven't blogged in months, but I have a lot of exciting things coming up and I think I should really start getting into it again.