Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Update...
I got a 79.9% on that test, which according to that school is failing, but according to my heart it is doing well. I currently have an 88% in there, so my chances of an A are nil, but my chances of a B are still there. I have the final tomorrow. I was able to get off work early tonight for some extra study time. I was very happy about this until one of my co-workers called me a baby and told me that SHE never stresses about tests. SHE always found her own time to study. SHE graduated with a 99.99% blah blah blah... yadda yadda yadda... make me puke BULLSHIT!!! Well, I have news for her. I am not a baby, I suffer from massive test anxiety and I am thinking about getting tested for either dyslexia or ADD or something. There has to be an explanation to why I am so stupid. I have such a terrible vocabulary and I can't pronounce words correctly for the life of me. Or sometimes I mix up words while speaking. Like I was telling my mom the when she came to visit that when Jamie and I hit that deer, I was suprised that the airbags didn't deport and she corrected me and said deploy. I do stuff like that a lot and people make fun of me for it. Sometimes customers at work even laugh at me and just make me feel like shit. I don't know what's wrong. Maybe I'm just dumb and just trying to blame it on some undiagnosed learning disability. But still, that didn't give her the right to call me a baby and laugh at me in front of our other co-workers. Oh well, she's the one who has to live with herself. Obviously she has self-esteem issues if she has to bring others down. I know. I used to.
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Don't worry about using the wrong words. I do that a lot too, and people always laugh at me. Just yesterday I used 'compacted' when I needed to use 'compounded.' And your co-worker is either mean or a liar. Or both. I ditched classes to get time to study because I'd be totally calm until the day or two before, and then I would freak out! And my mom gets really bad test anxiety too. If I remember correctly, I think CNM even had a program where you could take your tests in a different locale and with a different timer if you had test anxiety. They tried to make it easier for you, so it's definitely a recognized thing. Good luck on your final. I'll be praying for you.
ReplyDeleteThanks Audrey! I'm glad I'm not the only one. Great news though! My final was hard, but I got a B in the class! Now on to Micro! :)
ReplyDeleteHow's baby doing?
YAY!!!! With the awesome grades you've had all semester, I knew you were going to do awesome!
ReplyDeleteBaby is AWESOME!