Appt tmrw

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. My last period was June 21. The nurse is going to ask me if I've taken an HPT and I'm going to have to tell her no. Then she's going to insist I take one there and then I am going to be devastated because I know it's going to be negative. I haven't taken one because I'm sick of the disappointment. I'm hoping the heartbreak won't show on my face when she tells me the results. However, I am praying that the doctor will refer me to a fertility specialist. Yeah, Clomid may increase my chances of twins, but since I want at least 2 before 35, maybe twins will be a good thing. I regret waiting so long. Totally regret it.