Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Clinical
Yesterday was my first clinical rotation. At a nursing home. The most depressing place I have ever been in my life. Old, frail people. I was so afraid of hurting my patient, that I don't even think I gave her an adequate bath. I am really hoping I didn't make a mistake in choosing this as my career. I'm starting to have second thoughts, though. I am so upset right now and I don't even have anyone I can talk to. Everyone else in my class had a great time. They all got along really well with their patients and they all seemed so confident and skilled. They actually knoew what they were doing. I had no clue. I felt lost all day. When I asked for help, I felt as if people were talking down to me. When is my life going to go the way I want? I hope reincarnation exists. I won't fuck up next time.
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I think that you had a hard time because this is new, not because you're bad at it or anything like that. I think that the more you do it, the more comfortable you'll get with it. I know several nurses who've said this. Also keep in mind, sometimes people say that they've had a great time or pretend confidence because they're really terrified inside and didn't want anyone else to know!
ReplyDeleteI have my second one tomorrow. I'll let you know if that's any better. I am so nervous, though!
ReplyDeleteI'm praying for you right now!!!! :)
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